I do not have the luxury of time.  I work full time, and then sometimes part time on top of that.  I take care of a household, and I have a plot at the community garden.  I belong to two writing groups, and I have other things I like to do – thrift shopping, crochet, reading, meeting with friends.  My life is busy, and always has been.

I have friends who have the luxury of time.  They for whatever reason don’t work, or don’t have kids, or just don’t have the busy life that I have.

I am so jealous of that sometimes.  I want to write.  I’d love to have 2 to 4 hour blocks of time to write.  I’d love to have 1 to 3 hour blocks of time to work in the garden or take on a bigger task in the yard – pulling out bushes or trimming trees or digging a new garden bed.  I’d like to have uninterrupted time to do some sewing.  I’ve had fabric to make several summer dresses, for at least three years.  I still don’t have summer dresses.  There are curtains to be made for my daughter’s bedroom.

I don’t have the luxury of time.  I have plenty of energy, and I have plenty of resources.  I just don’t have that luxury of time.  Every minute of my time is packed full – I’m fitting in 2-minute tasks while I’m waiting for the pot of water to boil on the stove.  I’m fitting 10 minutes tasks in between feeding the cat and when it is time to leave for work.  In 3 minutes, I can unload and reload the dishwasher.  In fifteen minutes, I can cut up a full bowl of fruit for use later.  In four minutes, I can fold a load of laundry and start another.  A half-hour is enough time to clean a bathroom or sweep and mop a floor.

I know I will have time when I am old, and retired.  My biggest fear – will I still have the energy and the resources to get those things done?  Will it be too late to do those things?  Or will there just be other things taking up my time, and I still won’t have the luxury of time?

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